When I first started school I was accepted and everyone liked me, but who wouldn't I was only five, but as I grew older it seemed that others were "maturing" faster than me. I remember I was only in fifth grade and many kids were "going out" and kissing. I was still playing with my toys and running around the playground doing anything. I lost many friends that year because I was considered weird. People shunned me where every I went. Well, most people anyway. I had a few close friends. So, when I switched schools I decided I needed a new start. I tried to changed everything about myself. I didn't want to be that child that no one liked. My mom noticed that I was acting different and told me, "Julia, you shouldn't care so much about what others think." I still till this day care what everyone around me says and thinks about me, but then again who doesn't.
This is my second new start. Highschool. It is was a huge change. So many more people to care about every move I make, what I look like, and what kind of grades I have. I know I'm not like everyone else and sometimes that bothers me. Sometimes I wish I was "normal." Whatever normal is. It's really to bad I want this,but it's true. I have toned it down quite a bit now and I am definantly more stable than I was in elementarty school. I also know that people don't really care that much about how I look and what I do, but everytime someone gives me a put down I remember what my mom said and keeps telling me. I also remember one other thing my mom and dad both say. Lifes not always fair. I think both of those quotes are great life lessons. You honestly shouldn't care what others think because the truth is they really don't care that much and you truly aren't that important to them. I think people only say mean things so that they feel better for themselves and it isn't fair that people say mean things just to make themselves feel of more importance, but thats life.
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